We shot Allie Eagle and Me in 2003 — now it is 2007. I can’t believe how long it has been! Now a chunk of my life has been captured on tape and will always be there. I will look back as an older woman and still be 22 years old walking through the Te Henga wet land. I find this concept amazing and it is something that fascinates me about the documentary medium.
Now three years later, I watch the film in a different way. I don’t think about the storyline or the issues I was talking about. I start to think about how I felt while making it and what was going on in my life at that point. I remember being very much in love with one of the members of the crew. I also remember feeling very insecure about the film and my directing. It was the first time I had embarked o a project of this size and I was very unsure of whether I was doing it the right way.
What I know now, and which I didn’t then, is that there is no right or wrong way of directing. I just needed to know how my story was going to fit together and what exactly I wanted to say. I did know these things and I really had nothing to worry about.
When I look at the shots of the swamp I can’t believe how beautiful they are. I think the DOP did the most amazing job. Partly the reason they do look so amazing is because we got up really early in the morning — around six or so. It was Autumn which was the perfect time to shoot the film. Everything was ablaze and the swamp was on fire. I had planned it to be this way so that it would relate to the red panel and the continuing red theme throughout the film.
I want to thank my family for supporting me — they were really amazing I also need to thank you Allie for agreeing to participate. What makes the film so rewarding is that you and I are honest; I think this is the best thing about the work. I believe people appreciate watching honesty and that is why the film has appealed to so many different people, men and women of all ages.
In the end it doesn’t matter whether the audience agrees with your position. Well, perhaps it does to you, but for me I hope that the film is able to give people an insight into how one artist is thinking and reacting to the world around her and how this is reflected in her art.
So much television and even movies aren’t honest enough — they are just candyfloss for the eyeballs. I like to watch or make a film that makes us think — and hopefully even produces a little debate on the way home.
Thank you for helping me make that film,